Bittersweet memories
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Fishball


The first time we met was during trial camp.
At the pass the pocky station. :)
This wasn't one of my best stations.
And I ended up letting everybody eat the pockys .
but not before torturing them : P

I told you this before.
But I didn't really notice you.
It was only until the actual camp that I knew of your existence, thanks to the guy you don't like ;) Fusen. I thought you like knew him.

We acted like a couple eh.
Well you actually. I was like trying to ignore you. LOL
Saw you dancing the mass dance :)
But I gave in in the end and played along.
Then it was the end of camp.
I was actually sad that I didn't get your number or email.



But turns out Jasmine is your classmate. LOL!
Then we met again at Dance 4 Fun
I supported you guys with the Assholes until High sia..
Jun Xi 's head was hurting lol coz we smack his head with the air thingy.

After that we kept chatting on msn and msging each other.
I knew you hated cheeze coz you told me Sushan was making cheeze cake for Nicholas
you don't like cakes I think.
and you asked me for my birthday.
too bad you can't celebrate it with me now.
Then you asked me to go for SOE.
Haha..I had a good time.
Then 3days later, it was your birthday.
You were in a leadership camp.
I didn't get to celebrate your birthday with you. Haiz
Well.. slowly. We started studying and jogging together.
Thanks for helping in designing my flag =)
And I remember you like to spam "take care".
After I messaged "take care" to you when you were jogging. When I was worried about your asthma.


Then that day. when we watched Night at the museum.
I wasn't sure but you held my arm for the first time.
And I just went for it.
After the movie and dinner.
You were lying on my shoulder.
It was such a great feeling.
I felt like the previously empty spot was filled up.
you seem pretty happy.
hopefully it wasn't becoz of that you couldn't focus on your studies.

Then on the 15/6/09
I made you cry.
After you ask me if I regretted knowing you.
As many of your friends said you have changed.
Being the playful me.
I answers "yes"
Ignorant of what I have just done.
I don't know how but I cheered you up.
Made you say some naughty stuffs. : P
And blackmailed you LOL
Then you became my girlfriend when we reveal our true feelings.
I really felt a huge burden was gone.
The burden of keepning that secret.
But at the same time I was sad.
Because you became my girlfriend right before I have 3 camps
We messaged each other throughout the camps.
Thanks to Jun Xi delivery.
Saw you twice. :))
You were the one who made me still enjoy the lousy challengers camp.
You were the one who made me skip half the flag football camp on 18/6 so I could go for pinata sentosa outing . :P
Of course I made those choices willingly and never regretted it.
Then on friday 19/6 We went on our first date at clementi.
Sry for the lack of planning.
Made you spend $8 for nothing.
On sunday , I went to your house.
Coz like no place to go.
actually wanted to let you see my house.
Reached your house.
Watched dramas with you. Though I don't understand anything. LOL
Then we watched vampire movie.
Well more like me. while you slept on my thigh.
We got closer and closer. then you hugged me for the first time.
I think you kissed me on the cheek the first time too.
and I kissed you back. Well more like a quick peck.
We ate at ikea. You love chicken wings!
Then we had our third date after I booked out of ECE camp
On the 26/6/09 We go watch "Drag me to hell "! After your AYG thing.
I didn't planned it well again.
We had to take a bus ride to Jurong point to catch the movie.
We bought macdonalds and ate it on the bus.
While eating we started kissing. lol
our first --- ----

Haha.
I think I got addicted to it.
Hugs too :)
I loved the look you give me when you hugged me.
i loved your smile.
I loved the way you feel.
I started to love you.
deeper and deeper.

Met you on sunday after your AYG event. You seem great even though you smell a bit :P I liked that smell lol.
Met you on monday too. Should have let you sleep. =P sry.

When sch starts you were very busy.
Met you at friday after class. Still normal.
Then towards the volleyball camp week. You became even more busy.
At first it was ok. but when it was AGm for you.
I was late. Sry...I don't know what to say. I missed your big event.
Then after volleyball camp.
I don't know why.
I have this burning desire to meet up with you.
I couldn't control it.
I wanted to celebrate our first month together.
Tried to meet up with you even when you dun want to on tuesday
I didn't know what happened.
You wanted to stone in the bus. So I let you.
I wanted to hold your hand.
Thursday, tried to escort you home. Becoz you seem sad. But you dun wan. You said your friends are going home with you.
I was ok with that.
Saturday I was celebrating my friend's birthday and drank a lot of beer.
I made you angry. By not telling you something I wanna tell you. By overteasing you. I didn't mean it!!!!!!!!!!!
I was stupid. All That something I want to tell you was that "I LOVE YOU"!
Then on sunday I went for Gloria's event
I could see you were angry.
I didn't know why!
I was confused.
And when I saw you grabbing Larry's arm. I was enraged!
And I don't know why!
I tried to hide it by acting gay with kevin they all.
G4 thanks guys.

After Gloria's event took bus and talked it our with you(I didn't say anything about me being angry.) while kevin was sleeping.
You talked about communication.
We ate at ikea you still don't let me escort you home. I was worried.
but at least you seem better.

I don't know why. All I could think of was to meet up with you.
I forgot that I could call you.
And instead of relieving you stress. I further increased it.
You faced the dilema of making me upset and not finishing your homework right?
I didn't mean it.
I could have been more caring...
I could have..

I didn't notice it.
Then on wednesday I waited under your house. From 7.30am till 10am
Just to give you a turtle.
I mean for it to be your bodyguard.
But I didn't say it out.
As I saw that smile on your face for a while. I'm not sure. but I thinkI saw it. I was delighted.
You said you are meeting your friend. but after I accidentally missed the bus. Your friend took a long time to come. And you seem to insist on me leaving before you.
I thought nothing about it.
I chatted with my friend on msn. He said you could be avoiding me.
That's when I started to think you're avoiding me.
Thursday , I wanted to escort you to the dentist. But you seem to not want me to go with you.. My doubt grew .
On Friday. I told you the truth. I doubted you. but I really wanted to trust you. That why I told you.
I recently realised. That it was in fact me who suggested breaking up. Because you didn't say it out. I might be guessing but, you were just trying to tell me that you wanted some timeout.
But I lost control at that moment. I lost control.
And this is how it ended. On 26/7 when I called you the second time.

Today could have been our second month.

For now. Focus on your studies ya.

Jiayou for your exams!