WOOHOO!!!
Exams over!

Haiz. but I'm pretty busy this holiday.
Got VPP.
Which means

every monday to friday I will be in sch from 8am to 5pm T_T
anyway.fuck blogger for still having problems

Well.

Here's my schedule

28Aug Fri: Visiting my friend's ashes at bright hill.
Malcom's bday celebration
Sat: Maybe going out with Assholes (Travis ,Xue zhi,Jun Xi, Jolene)
Sun: Slack day.
Mon: VPP,PPP T_T
Tuesday: VPP. Vball training
Wed: VPP.T_T
Thursday: VPP,Vball training
Friday: VPP Vball training

Suei Chuan.... I hope your doing fine.

Cai Hong! The first song I sang on K box !

LOL!


Alrighty. This is what I did on the 22th of of August!


4th FLOOR KITCHEN !

FOOOOOO!

GREAT day today. Had fun.
Gonna upload pics once blogger lets me

Anyway the second song,"Have you ever" by S- Club 7 is where I got my blog address from.

So much more to say.


It used to be my favourite song.

And it's a long story why.

Ron| Revive | Regret.
My exams are next monday and thursday.

Haiz...now I still no mood and motivation to study.

I just read Kiat's post.
Same thing happening to me.
I remember when I got back my O levels results.
I was disappointed. I really thought I could have done better.
Then I kept saying I would get all A's in poly!
Haha..now look at me.
Slacking and growing fatter along the way.
As for the volleyball
I'm think I feel kinda jaded.
For 3 years. I don't think I've improved much maybe because I never really worked hard.
I'm just too lazy eh..

After this exam.
I really have to work hard.
KIAT ! LET'S JIAYOU!

Blogger having problems
can't upload pictures. :(


I have been studying and slacking at Jimmy's house . Lots of pics...
but cannot update haiz.

Watch LOST with Jimmy.
And damn..it's confusing...
an Island that can travel thru time?
WTH.
Haha..

I should get back to studying .

Internet been pretty problematic this few weeks.

Today.

Study day.

Haiz..

Never really studied in sch haha.

Met up with Xue Zhi and Travis.

Fuckup pair sia they two. Muahaha..

We were laughing non-stop in the library.

After that we went to run campus run ,been ages. :)

Joke.

We from the grandstand run until the carpark .
When we reached the slope all three of us at the same time say

"tired sia"

LOL. In the end.

We keep laughing laughing until New SU jiu walk le.

Haiz. Train what sia. Haha

We went to visit the new SU as Travis wanna see.

Then back to gym.


Home ! I have to STUDY!


CHIONG AR!!!!!!!

Ron| Revive | Restart.

Well . I should stop stabbing myself.

Muahaha...You no stab me ! I stab me!
AND YOU!

Ahaha..

Gotta enjoy life

FOOOOOO!!!!!!

I wanna say
Thanks to
S-cube,
Assholes,
NPVB,
Astro

and somebody for giving me one of the best 3 months in my life.


Suei Chuan. You will forever be missed.
Have a good time wherever you are.

The Wonders - That Thing You Do!
--------------------------------

You,
Doin' that thing you do,
Breaking my heart into a million pieces,
Like you always do
And you,
Don't mean to be cruel,
You never even knew about the heartache,
I've been going through
Well I try and try to forget you girl,
But it's just so hard to do,
Every time you do that thing you do

I,
Know all the games you play,
And I'm gonna find a way to let you know that,
You'll be mine someday
'Cause we,
Could be happy can't you see,
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
And keep you here with me
'Cause I try and try to forget you girl,
But it's just so hard to do,
Every time you do that thing you do

I don't ask a lot girl,
But I know one thing's for sure,
It's the love I haven't got girl,
And I just can't take it anymore

'Cause we,
Could be happy can't you see,
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
And keep you here with me
Cause it hurts me so just to see you go,
Around with someone new,
And if I know you you're doin' that thing,
Every day just doin' that thing,
I can't take you doing that thing you do

Bittersweet memories
-------------------------------

Fishball


The first time we met was during trial camp.
At the pass the pocky station. :)
This wasn't one of my best stations.
And I ended up letting everybody eat the pockys .
but not before torturing them : P

I told you this before.
But I didn't really notice you.
It was only until the actual camp that I knew of your existence, thanks to the guy you don't like ;) Fusen. I thought you like knew him.

We acted like a couple eh.
Well you actually. I was like trying to ignore you. LOL
Saw you dancing the mass dance :)
But I gave in in the end and played along.
Then it was the end of camp.
I was actually sad that I didn't get your number or email.



But turns out Jasmine is your classmate. LOL!
Then we met again at Dance 4 Fun
I supported you guys with the Assholes until High sia..
Jun Xi 's head was hurting lol coz we smack his head with the air thingy.

After that we kept chatting on msn and msging each other.
I knew you hated cheeze coz you told me Sushan was making cheeze cake for Nicholas
you don't like cakes I think.
and you asked me for my birthday.
too bad you can't celebrate it with me now.
Then you asked me to go for SOE.
Haha..I had a good time.
Then 3days later, it was your birthday.
You were in a leadership camp.
I didn't get to celebrate your birthday with you. Haiz
Well.. slowly. We started studying and jogging together.
Thanks for helping in designing my flag =)
And I remember you like to spam "take care".
After I messaged "take care" to you when you were jogging. When I was worried about your asthma.


Then that day. when we watched Night at the museum.
I wasn't sure but you held my arm for the first time.
And I just went for it.
After the movie and dinner.
You were lying on my shoulder.
It was such a great feeling.
I felt like the previously empty spot was filled up.
you seem pretty happy.
hopefully it wasn't becoz of that you couldn't focus on your studies.

Then on the 15/6/09
I made you cry.
After you ask me if I regretted knowing you.
As many of your friends said you have changed.
Being the playful me.
I answers "yes"
Ignorant of what I have just done.
I don't know how but I cheered you up.
Made you say some naughty stuffs. : P
And blackmailed you LOL
Then you became my girlfriend when we reveal our true feelings.
I really felt a huge burden was gone.
The burden of keepning that secret.
But at the same time I was sad.
Because you became my girlfriend right before I have 3 camps
We messaged each other throughout the camps.
Thanks to Jun Xi delivery.
Saw you twice. :))
You were the one who made me still enjoy the lousy challengers camp.
You were the one who made me skip half the flag football camp on 18/6 so I could go for pinata sentosa outing . :P
Of course I made those choices willingly and never regretted it.
Then on friday 19/6 We went on our first date at clementi.
Sry for the lack of planning.
Made you spend $8 for nothing.
On sunday , I went to your house.
Coz like no place to go.
actually wanted to let you see my house.
Reached your house.
Watched dramas with you. Though I don't understand anything. LOL
Then we watched vampire movie.
Well more like me. while you slept on my thigh.
We got closer and closer. then you hugged me for the first time.
I think you kissed me on the cheek the first time too.
and I kissed you back. Well more like a quick peck.
We ate at ikea. You love chicken wings!
Then we had our third date after I booked out of ECE camp
On the 26/6/09 We go watch "Drag me to hell "! After your AYG thing.
I didn't planned it well again.
We had to take a bus ride to Jurong point to catch the movie.
We bought macdonalds and ate it on the bus.
While eating we started kissing. lol
our first --- ----

Haha.
I think I got addicted to it.
Hugs too :)
I loved the look you give me when you hugged me.
i loved your smile.
I loved the way you feel.
I started to love you.
deeper and deeper.

Met you on sunday after your AYG event. You seem great even though you smell a bit :P I liked that smell lol.
Met you on monday too. Should have let you sleep. =P sry.

When sch starts you were very busy.
Met you at friday after class. Still normal.
Then towards the volleyball camp week. You became even more busy.
At first it was ok. but when it was AGm for you.
I was late. Sry...I don't know what to say. I missed your big event.
Then after volleyball camp.
I don't know why.
I have this burning desire to meet up with you.
I couldn't control it.
I wanted to celebrate our first month together.
Tried to meet up with you even when you dun want to on tuesday
I didn't know what happened.
You wanted to stone in the bus. So I let you.
I wanted to hold your hand.
Thursday, tried to escort you home. Becoz you seem sad. But you dun wan. You said your friends are going home with you.
I was ok with that.
Saturday I was celebrating my friend's birthday and drank a lot of beer.
I made you angry. By not telling you something I wanna tell you. By overteasing you. I didn't mean it!!!!!!!!!!!
I was stupid. All That something I want to tell you was that "I LOVE YOU"!
Then on sunday I went for Gloria's event
I could see you were angry.
I didn't know why!
I was confused.
And when I saw you grabbing Larry's arm. I was enraged!
And I don't know why!
I tried to hide it by acting gay with kevin they all.
G4 thanks guys.

After Gloria's event took bus and talked it our with you(I didn't say anything about me being angry.) while kevin was sleeping.
You talked about communication.
We ate at ikea you still don't let me escort you home. I was worried.
but at least you seem better.

I don't know why. All I could think of was to meet up with you.
I forgot that I could call you.
And instead of relieving you stress. I further increased it.
You faced the dilema of making me upset and not finishing your homework right?
I didn't mean it.
I could have been more caring...
I could have..

I didn't notice it.
Then on wednesday I waited under your house. From 7.30am till 10am
Just to give you a turtle.
I mean for it to be your bodyguard.
But I didn't say it out.
As I saw that smile on your face for a while. I'm not sure. but I thinkI saw it. I was delighted.
You said you are meeting your friend. but after I accidentally missed the bus. Your friend took a long time to come. And you seem to insist on me leaving before you.
I thought nothing about it.
I chatted with my friend on msn. He said you could be avoiding me.
That's when I started to think you're avoiding me.
Thursday , I wanted to escort you to the dentist. But you seem to not want me to go with you.. My doubt grew .
On Friday. I told you the truth. I doubted you. but I really wanted to trust you. That why I told you.
I recently realised. That it was in fact me who suggested breaking up. Because you didn't say it out. I might be guessing but, you were just trying to tell me that you wanted some timeout.
But I lost control at that moment. I lost control.
And this is how it ended. On 26/7 when I called you the second time.

Today could have been our second month.

For now. Focus on your studies ya.

Jiayou for your exams!

SE hmk pretty f-ed up.

Haiz...all because I don't listen to lesson.

Now. I just having a staredown competition with the computer.

Tired tired tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm a pretty much a mental wreck now.
Thinking about you.
Thinking about Suei Chuan.
Thinking about my SE hmk.

Then

The Wonders - That Thing You Do!
------------------------------------------------
You,
Doin' that thing you do,
Breaking my heart into a million pieces,
Like you always do
And you, Don't mean to be cruel,
You never even knew about the heartache,
I've been going through

Well I try and try to forget you girl,
But it's just so hard to do,
Every time you do that thing you do
I,Know all the games you play,
And I'm gonna find a way to let you know that,
You'll be mine someday
'Cause we,
Could be happy can't you see,
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
And keep you here with me
'Cause I try and try to forget you girl,
But it's just so hard to do,
Every time you do that thing you do

I don't ask a lot girl,
But I know one thing's for sure,
It's the love I haven't got girl,
And I just can't take it anymore

'Cause we, Could be happy can't you see,
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
And keep you here with me
Cause it hurts me so just to see you go,
Around with someone new,
And if I know you you're doin' that thing,
Every day just doin' that thing,

I can't take you doing that thing you do

A huge loss.

Ron | Revive | Regret.

I have put this on my ebuddy. Because I have regretted not spending more time with you. Sorry Suei Chuan. I didn't make that extra effort to meet you or be there for you. I'm sorry for not telling you more about my current life after I became a year 2 in ngee ann.

For now.
This is what I can remember of all my interactions with you

You was a cheerful and cheeky person who had a quiet side just like me and
I have known you since primary one and it has been 12 years.Since the day I first met you. We were both primary one then and it was the first day of school. I didn't really remember what happened but we were fighting over a 50 cent coin after recess. Miss Ho,our form teacher, stepped in and stopped the fight and ordered us to apologize to each other . I not sure if we became friends that ever since that time. Somewhere along the way both of us got to know Spencer(hopefully I'm correct ) .

Fast forward to primary 3, when the unfortunate accident happened. . I didn't do anything. I don't really have a good excuse except that I was still ignorant about life. Till this date I'm still very much ignorant about certain social stuffs as I used to be an introvert with a small bit of an Extrovert side.

I think we slowly became good friends during primary 3 and 4 as we came from the same primary 1 and 2 class and because both of us love chili and the noodles from the noodle store in the canteen. At first I found you a little annoying and weird,but soon I got used to it and enjoyed your funny and cheeky antics. We flew paper planes in the school hall and got punished, I don't know why but somehow I've always managed to run away.

You have always been good in your studies in primary school and if I'm not wrong. You got first or second in class during primary 5 while I got the best progress.(I have been a lazy boy ever since primary sch : P). After primary 5, I seldom see him except sometimes during recess. Primary 6 ,I met Jing Kang

It was not until secondary 1 when we both found out that we're in the same class together with Jimmy . Then later on. Yumin transferred from Ghim Moh secondary school and join our class. You can say we're like the 4 musketeers in Class 1A. LOL. Slowly our social circle increased and we get to know our other friends. I remember how we loved to play with spiders made of paper clips? Even during before the volleyball matches we play them. Now I still have some of them. Eh...but I forget put where liao. :P .

In volleyball, we got to know Jing Kang. Training was hard and tiring or maybe I was very unfit that time but we had fun and bonded with each other forming another 4 musketeers group again . LOL. At the end of sec 1, We played in a mini cup. You tried your best as the setter for our team however we still didn't really win alot of matches. We managed to overcome Chong Hoe's team. Plus We had fun travelling all the way to Hougang and travelling back.

In secondary 2 , we form a team with Yumin, Selvan, Jimmy and Kuong Hing (I think.) Forgot who else in side le. AND we became the founders of the

"SQ E-Hub"

We used to stay after the SQ-E Hub's opening hour to use the computers in school and we watched a lot of videos at funnyparts.com and had a blast laughing.

Then in secondary 3. MAFIA(My Another Friend Is Asshole) was formed.
There was Jing Kang,Jimmy,Kuong Hing, you and later on me and Yumin.
This helped to keep up our interactions with each other.

MAFIA really opened me up a bit but I was still pretty much a shy person.
If not for them. I would still be cooped up in my little world. Peeking out sometimes to say "HELLO!" then pop back in my own bubble of space. We play soccer almost everyday. Half a year later.

Disband of S.T.A
Disband of M.AF.I.A
Formation of S-cube.

after a few soccer matches between S.T.A and us, M.A.F.I.A


Now we got to know more people and our social circle widen as we got to secondary 4
You were still as cheeky and full of zest. You were always singing and modifying songs with me. Like tong hua , the macdonalds ad's tune. Those were the days. Then we have tuition at Andrew's. We played at my house before we went to Andrew's. There was Jimmy ,Yumin ,Yu Xue, Edmund,Danny, Malcom and Jing Kang. My room would always be a furnace when you guys arrive.

Then came the Olvls. We would always study ourside my house where my dad put the extra sofas and a chest box. Jimmy, Jing Kang and Yumin was always there too. I think it was during this period you started complaining of pains in your hip area.

After the Olvls, after playing soccer friendly with the sch team.. you injured your leg. I think that when things started to get worse.

I was shocked when I received news that you have been diagnosed with cancer.
I knew it two weeks after.

Sorry. I didn't spent more time with you. I really regret it. When I can visit you more. I was busy with other stuff. I wish when I visited you last time I could make you smile more. but I don't know how. I wish I know what to say. I wish I could have spoken to you more ,I wish I could... I wish....

----






Now after 3 years, the world is so going to be different without you.
So now I will say
So long. My friend.
You have fought a long and hard battle.
Now.
It time to take a rest.

Dun worry about us.

Faktion: Goodbye, Brother

To watch your red balloon fly away
It’s such a disappointment
Nothing to say, much like today
I’m hurting because of you, I saw you fly away
Nothing I can change today

Chorus:
Too bad you couldn’t stay, didn’t see you on your way
Now there’s no taking back
or saying what I meant to say
And now the only question is why,
while the answer is denied
The world looks so much different without your smile

Reality hit me hard today
The past is gone away, hope I’ll remember it
And all those times we used to play
Those memories of you and I when we were young
Stir my heart alive and shadow the death that has become

Repeat Chorus

I’ll preserve your life inside
To mend your absence for the rest of my time
I know you touched so many lives
I finally see you in your true light
I see all the things I failed to see before
And the world looks different now


Too bad you couldn’t stay, didn’t see you on your way
Now there’s no taking back
or saying what I meant to say
And now the only question is why,
while the answer is denied
The world looks so much different.



Good bye My friend. Hope you're in a better place now.

Wasn't feeliong really happy today. My Ambience temperature is malfunctioning , I really really don't feel good. I just snapped when I got to training and started serving balls like crazy. It felt damn good after being missing in action in volleyball after so long. But I think I injured my left arm again. and I Didn't really feel well today after warmups in training. Everytime I yawn ,I blackout and lost control of my body. It's like my brain just shut down. And my sense of balance was way off. I could only sit on the ground until it was my turn to play. Even while playing, I really could control my arms well. things got so bad that I decided to rest. When I was feeling a bit beter I went home.

I'm going to Malaysia for a total of 4 times.
This sat would be the first trip with Jimmy. We're going Fishing!!
Haha.
yea. this brings back a lot of happy memories. but now this memories became bittersweet. I still treasure them though.



Well. Don't miss me!

seriously. I think I have never acted like a good boyfriend before.
Yes. I was nice. But I wasn't good
I kept repeating and repeating things without knowing.
Even when you told me you didn't like it.

I didn't make it known that I was thinking of you.
I didn't say that I'll be there for you.
But actually I was always there.
I hope you haven't throw away my little turtle bodyguard .
Yea. The one I gave to you last last wednesday.
When I gave it to you.
I thought I saw a slight smile.
My heart really jumped for joy.

Fishball. Will you give me a second chance to be a better boyfriend.

Just woke up and thought of you. I wish you were lying next to me,holding my hand.
Made me kinda happy yet sad..